WAIT ....

I have not realised that it has been a long while that I have kept silent over my blog. To some of you, I chatted over Skype, or via my prayer letter, emails and yes over facebook!

As you take some time to glance through my news update - my prayer is that the Holy Spirit will be encouraging you as well….

Since last August 08, the Lord spoke to me- not to renew my school contract, I obeyed HIM and trusted that HE would tell me something soon…like by the end of Dec 08 =) or before I end my contract in June09. But HE kept saying..


WAIT…

"Haste will prevent you from receiving anything.
Wait before God until you feel saturated with HIS Presence, then go forth to your next duty with the conscious freshness and viguour of Christ"

Extract from 'Streams in the Desert'

It's great to journal what God spoke- those were the words HE spoke to me end of Jan 09.
Can I say that waiting is a discipline??...mmm and I must confess I was not that disciplined. I will not blame it on anything or anyone.
It can come so subtly into our life that we are to constantly be on the alert.

The past few months I really felt restless, and felt that I was drawing away from HIS Presence- although I was aware of it- I took no initiative of making any amendments- just keep with the minimum of "hi God!", going through my rituals of reading His word, praying, worshipping…" and off to the different things in life.

Then, a friend of mine invited me to join for a week end retreat led by a leader who worked with YWAM before. So I knew what I was in for!!!
I was really looking forward to it!

How timely this retreat came along my path! What can I say?
HE knows at all times what we need even before we know it. It was all prepared ahead of time!

It is still a period of waiting for me…it is tough! He knows it but I have to go through it.

During the retreat- He reminded me that He(Jesus) and FATHER GOD were in this journey with me.

I had this vision of being 'piggy-back' by Jesus- walking on the hot sands and hot lava rocks. We were all barefooted but HE was carrying me.
At one time, we stopped along the shore line and He said to me 'Remember to contemplate the vastness of the ocean. It represents my love. Don’t get overwhelmed by the miles of the lava rocks. Also remember, you can ask ME anytime to 'piggy-back' you. Father God and I are with you in this walk. You have to do it. Don't take short cut. It won't help. TRUST ME Doris. Persevere, it's tough but persevere. You will know in due time. TRUST ME.'

I can share more and more of what HE spoke to me but one main thing that Abba Father reminded me of is to COMPLETELY rest in HIM. Just like a little baby in the arms of the parents…

I do hope that in whatever circumstances you are in right now, you are willing to surrender to HIM and trust HIM. Yes, tough it will be..but like this old hymn say

I don’t know about tomorrow
I just live from day to day
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey
I don't worry o'er the future
For I know what Jesus said
And to-day, I'll walk besides HIM
For He knows what is ahead

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know He holds my hand

'Joyfully hanging in there in HIM.'

In His love...
Doris.


Ps: I will continue to tell you of my journey step by step…and do feel free to email me..would love to hear from you. Cheers!